So, this weekend I made a decision, and once I'd made it I felt so much better, and a weight that I hadn't really known was on my shoulders was lifted. I decided to quit German... for a while. I have just started B1 (my 21st week of intensive German), but I felt as though I hadn't grasped enough of the previous 20 weeks to really keep going forward and take the B1 exam.
I find that with the kids I don't get a chance to study in the afternoon, and then by evening I'm usually too tired to really take much in. I do the work, but even I know that it's not sticking, and sometimes if I am especially tired and just need to get it done for the next day, then I rely rather heavily on the answers at the back of the book just so I can get to bed sooner.
I've also missed a few days of late with Hamish being ill and that doesn't help. So I thought things over and really the only thing that was keeping me there was the fact that I really like my teacher and the people in my class, and that I want to get to the B2 exam before the end of the year.
So I checked the calendar and worked backwards from December and realised that I could afford to take a few months off and go over what I should have learnt and have a break too.
So I went today and postponed the weeks I have left and re-booked for June. I felt I really needed to have a date for going back otherwise it might be too easy to let it slip (and also not study). And then I met my classmates for coffee and said my goodbyes, though I am hoping we'll still keep in touch. And now I feel like I am on holiday. Yippee!